Something has recently possessed my 2 year old. He cries at everything. He doesn’t like hello, goodbye, toys, movies, books, milk or anything right now. He has decided to become a grump. I take comfort in the fact that this is a stage. In another 3 years he may have grown out of it…depending. My daughter was fine by about 5…not sure I can really use that timeline because all children are different but I sure as shittin hope it applies. I am open to sooner ungrumpification as well.
Something has possessed my son.
And turns out something has possessed several people in the movie ‘Rites’ starring the great Anthony Hopkins, who does creepy so well.
If you haven’t noticed this is my segue into the next subject…possession. Cue eerie music.
As I was starting to mention, my husband and I watched the movie Rites. And it really got me thinking about “evil” and the Devil and what I really belive about it. Then yesterday morning my hubby and I talked about it over our morning coffee. Our morning coffee is where we figure the mysteries to life and solve world hunger so this seemed an appropriate subject to talk about.
The Devil is that being, mythical with it’s horns and spikey tail that as a child you belive to be the root of all evil. He is in your evil thoughts. He is the reason people lie, cheat, steal and kill. In religion he is the tempter. In the movie ‘Rites” his minions abide within a person and slowly kill them from the inside out, contorting their bodies and features and voice so they do not even resemble the person who once lived normal and healthy.
Now I don’t know about possession, it definately intrigues me. My first thought would be that the power of the human mind is a dangerous thing. I know what it’s like to get too far inside my own head. You belive your own lies and excuses and it starts to seem like everyone else around you is the crazy one. You start judging your friends, your family and joe blow from the liqour store. The truth is usually, it’s you that needs a good spanking…a not the sexual kind, though depending on your circumstance, that to could be beneficial. It is the power of your mind that brings you to this place.
I am going to give you an example. The biggest Loser (or the fattest winner as my hubby refers to it) is one of my favorite shows. This show is about weight loss but it is more about the mentality that brought these folks to where they are. Psychologicly , they haven’t been healthy for a long time. They have hid behind the food and made excuses. None of them really see this at first. Sure they numbly admit to eating because of this, that or the other but they have shut off anything else and it takes beating their bodies to the breaking point to bring them to revelation, usually kicking and screaming the whole way. This is the example of the power of the mind.
So when it comes to possession is it all their heads? Is it the power of suggestion mingled with their extreme religious belief or is it really powers outside of the physical and more in the spiritual? I am a God fearing man. Who God is exactly, well not sure about that but I do believe he exists. Now I have heard it said that if you believ in God, then the devil really exists too.
And now we get into the thick of it. Grab that second cup of coffee ( I am).
I used to be a missionary. I know shocker. Me and my fowl fucking mouth used to “go into all the world and spread the good news”. I traveled to Israel, England and Thailand this way. Now I was never a street preaching person and when asked to do that kind of thing always said no, because even when I was a Christian it felt wrong to me to shove my beliefs on another person. I certainly wasn’t ready for theirs so, it seemed a good reason not to. Plus it wasn’t how I was raised to see people, like a souless piece of meat to bring Jesus to.
I started really questioning my faith about 8 years ago. My daughter was about 3 and my husbadn and I had been married about 5 years. When you have children, you see yourlife through as microscope. I looked in and starting asking myself how honest with my child I was going to be. I decided I wasn’t going to push my child to church and in christianity if I myself could not 100 percent agree with it’s terms anymore. When I decided that, my real journey began. I really felt I needed to find my beliefs so I had something solid to offer my daughter when she asked me the oldest question on earth, “who is God?”
I have now been married 12 years, my daughter is 10, I have a 3 year old (possessed, hehe) son. I am not sure I am any closer to the whole answer. What I have are tid bits of thoughts here and there,like I believe in God, not sure who he is just that he is there. And this also brings me back to the Devil.
There is a line from the movie “Usual Suspects” and it goes “The greatest trick the devil ever pulled was convincing people he didn’t exist.”
I might be one of those people. I do not discount that there could be ‘evil forces’ that are beyond my realm of understanding but I also tend to believe that the biggest devil there is lives with us. We are our worst enemy. This all leads back to the possession thing. Our own minds and wills ultimately bring us success or failure. Yes, there are things outside our realm of control that will influence this but we are the master of what we can control and often times the bad that happens isn;t because the devil made ya do it or the devil did it but because you should have used common sense. I have lived a life of just that, realising that a lot of the things I blamed on others or on something devilish, or even God, was really my lack of self examination and self control.
So I won’t say the devil doesn’t exist but i will say I think we ourselves act as the devils. I believe we born blank, with an idea of good and bad, right and wrong. It is our decisions that lead us down the path in life.
So food for thought or not. You could have just read this and been like, What the fuck? She is crazy! Well I am indeed a bit loopy but I enjoy the subject of the devil because it is a great mystery to me.
And anyone who knows me, knows I like a good mystery.
Enjoy your Sunday folks.